When i read ‘how I almost killed myself’ it resonated with how I felt after I lost my Mom. I shut down for almost 2 years. That was 10 years ago. I'm so much better now. Take Care of yourself. Stay Strong ☀️ The following is a song by Jim White.. It seems to resonate with your story, I know it did with mine. 🎶🎶💙🎶🎶
I am glad you’re giving yourself the grace and time that you deserve to move through these feelings and finally start processing. Grief must come with grace. Be gentle with yourself and keep writing!
Tori, god, the bit about the tornado knocking the house off its foundation is just the absolute truth. You can't just sit there and do the deep work when everything has structurally collapsed. Working yourself into the ground so you didn't have the energy to feel anything else is such a brutal way to survive. Taking your schedule down to three days a week is huge. Really glad you’re finally getting to just be present for yourself x
Thank you for your kind words, Salwa! You are absolutely right that “working yourself into the ground” is a “brutal way to survive.” I definitely don’t recommend it. However, it gave me time to reattach myself to my foundation. Sure, I would have loved to have gone to a beach house for a long rest and weekly expert trauma therapy. As a sole practitioner there literally wasn’t money for it. We do what we have to survive. I’m just glad I did! x
When i read ‘how I almost killed myself’ it resonated with how I felt after I lost my Mom. I shut down for almost 2 years. That was 10 years ago. I'm so much better now. Take Care of yourself. Stay Strong ☀️ The following is a song by Jim White.. It seems to resonate with your story, I know it did with mine. 🎶🎶💙🎶🎶
Chase The Dark Away by
Jim White…..
We drift along down rivers
Past the times we were born
Past broken smokestack factories
Graveyards of lost loved ones
We cast our dreams on waters dark
We just watch them drift away
We turn our eyes heavenward
But feel no need to pray
Chorus
It’s that day upon day
Trial upon trial
Wished upon walked upon
Smile we smile each day
Gonna chase this dark away
Chase the dark away
Chase the dark away
This life is short and aren’t we deviled
By all we’ve become
The inventory of our sins
Has struck us deaf and dumb
The stories we once lived to tell
Have long since faded gray
We know not of Heaven’s grace
What piper must we pay?
These falling leaves
Might tell a tale
Of harder times to come
But let us not surrender to
Our fears and turn to run
For our dreams will rise up above this earth
To mingle with the stars
To return as healing summer rain
A balm to these ancient scars
It’s that day upon day
Trial upon trial
Wished upon walked upon
Smile we smile each day
Yeah that smile we smile each day
Yeah that Smile we smile each day
Come chase the dark away
Come chase the dark away
Someone help me chase this dark away
Darling smile smile smile smile
Thank you for your kind comment and the song, Ragene. I'm sorry to hear about your Mom. Take care.
I am glad you’re giving yourself the grace and time that you deserve to move through these feelings and finally start processing. Grief must come with grace. Be gentle with yourself and keep writing!
Thank you for your kind words, Jacque.
Tori, god, the bit about the tornado knocking the house off its foundation is just the absolute truth. You can't just sit there and do the deep work when everything has structurally collapsed. Working yourself into the ground so you didn't have the energy to feel anything else is such a brutal way to survive. Taking your schedule down to three days a week is huge. Really glad you’re finally getting to just be present for yourself x
Thank you for your kind words, Salwa! You are absolutely right that “working yourself into the ground” is a “brutal way to survive.” I definitely don’t recommend it. However, it gave me time to reattach myself to my foundation. Sure, I would have loved to have gone to a beach house for a long rest and weekly expert trauma therapy. As a sole practitioner there literally wasn’t money for it. We do what we have to survive. I’m just glad I did! x
Thank you for your kind response, Ragene. I'm sorry to hear you know this path too. Take care!